Blurry October

If it weren't for your eyes,
I could sleep in peace tonight.
They scorch my soul.

You laugh haunts me
In the most disturbing way.

I keep wishing that the days
Would drown the pain of your memory,
But I keep remembering.

If it weren't for the way
You used to hold me....
And kiss me when I needed you.
I would feel the color seep through my skin.

How could you forget what we had?
Are you hiding inside this new version of self?

If it weren't for your stupid freestyle raps
You would invent in my car....
When I was "The lovely lady to your left"
Who you thought "Was the best..."
I might could drive without feeling you there.

If you love me,
How can you leave me?
If you think I'm the one,
Why can't you free me?